Proverbs 4:7

Wisdom is supreme; therefore get wisdom.

Though it cost you all you have, get understanding.

I know I need to call my parents. I know how horribly hard it is for my mom to be making all these calls and trying to keep everyone updated. She committed to herself to not call people until she knew for sure what Dad's prognosis is. Still...I don't want to call her.

Get understanding.

There's this part of me that just wants to be in the dark about this. It's a glimpse of what my dad is under. I'd rather not know what types of cells they are and how previous patients have responded to different treatments. I'd rather not know how long he has to live if he gets treatment or worse, if he doesn't. Or his recovery chances.

The first day, I was all about understanding. I did lots of research on bladder cancer. Partly because I thought if I'm educated, Dad will be educated. If I know more, then we'll make better decisions. That follows reason, right? But with this spiritual side that we are up against...the only thing that getting knowledge is doing is making this a more God-sized task. If I know fully what happens, what needs to happen, would could happen...all the happens. If I know everything on this subject...and the best thing for him and he refuses it...it's all on God. All on his shoulders. He's the deliverer. He's the mighty one. So I wonder...is that the reason for the command to get understanding?

You know, maybe in the Hebrew that isn't the original intent and I could go look it up right now. But...this thoughts brings me peace. So...in the Spirit's exegesis...the command to get understanding is so that we know ALL stems from him and is held together and has it's being.

Rev 4:11

You are worthy, our Lord and God,

to receive glory and honor and power,

for you created all things,

and by your will they were created

and have their being."

Get wisdom.

Wisdom only comes from God. And wisdom says...this is for the good. This is going to turn out good...no matter what happens. Wisdom says I'm being prepared. I'm being made stronger. I've got lessons on 20 different subjects from this one. Wisdom is...this is for a purpose.