Wrinkles

3 months without a post on here. Of course, my journal and other blogs hold those things. But as far as Dad's cancer updates go...they've been few and I haven't felt like writing about them.

I suppose there is a fine line between avoidance and giving something to God completely. They look the same. How can the people who really care about me know that I am not avoiding this subject? I've thought about this a lot. And what it comes down to is the fruit of the Spirit and consistency over time. It's okay to be down about it...but the truth of the matter is those times are so few and far in between now. Most days, when I think about my Dad I am filled with hope, peace, love and joy. That's how I know God delivered me from the obsessing, overwhelming need to talk about it all the time or to ask people for prayer all the time. Nope, God delivered me. I am not avoiding the cancer or death...I've just given it over to the only person who can do anything about it. Jesus.