Absentee Blogger

So it's been a while. I imagine I will need to email the two of you who are faithful to read this...and tell you I wrote again. It's been almost a month since I've wrote.

Once I got home though, as you can see by my absenteeism, things changed for me. I wasn't as stressed, just coping. Then I got through that and the announcement of Stage 4...and then the change back to LA occurred. Which entailed a persistent and haunting pain in my chest for over a week. I couldn't cry but I ached. I hurt. It was such a horrible feeling to be walking around like that, never resting. Just hurting. Aching in some 4th dimensional way.

So I got prayer last Sunday from faithful Gayle. And her prophecy came true and I've been released from that horrible, persistent collapsing feeling. But I have to keep laying it down. Laying my fears down. They amount to nothing. That's what the Lord told me through Gayle. My fears...all of them...equal a big ZERO.

That's nice. No really. It is. I have an entire sheet of unlined paper, front and back, full of fears I wrote out. No wonder I was collapsing. Imprisoned to my own mind, which is frankly obviously operating above the 10% line because it's capable of my own physical torture. I'd say I am genetically advanced. Okay...getting back to the point. Fear of getting kicked out of my house because of Maguy. Zero. Fear of saying something wrong. Zero. Being fat. Zero. I could go on, but you'd be here all night. And by then end, you'd know me more than I want you to. Somethings are just me and God. And since this is still a public blog...there are somethings you already know. So I don't have to tell you what I am afraid of. Especially if your name is Stacey. You know the most important ones, don't you? So...you get the point, right? I've had a really freeing experience this week and it's been amazing!

And the second part of her prophecy also came true as I am now working for the missions branch of my church! This also is fulfilling a prophecy from months ago Gayle had for me. So...things are finally moving. Things are FINALLY in motion. RESTORATION! I can feel it coming. I know it's not far off now. Maybe a few more dooseys and this Job stuff will be over.

I just can't get over it, though. All my fears amount to nothing. They are a zero in God's eyes. WOW. Double WOW. Nothing. Dad dying. There needs to be no fear. Ministry not happening. No fear. What a great revelation. I'm fairly sure I've been at this place before, but it's never felt this good. No, I've never stood in this spot before with the turmoil around me and decided to step out of it and into peace. I've never been up against this much at once. So...really I never have been here before.

It's like a little Welcome Home, Kristin party. Welcome Home. Welcome to where Jesus's Spirit lives. Evidence #1: Peace. Now, where's the love? (wink, wink....we all know where...now don't we? weather forecast sunny tomorrow.)

Night!